Because YOU are Strong!! (YPG)

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Are You Who You Want To Be???

Today I was wondering what to write and I decided to write about the following. This problem is mostly seen in teenagers! Well the question I have is: Are you who you want to be?? You might wonder why I ask this question and I do it because like you one day I was a teenager who apparently thought that I was who I want it to be but I was wrong! I was a teenager that I didn't want to be! I tried to hide myself by staying quiet or by surrounded by friend. I pretended to be happy around everything and everyone and no one knew it but me. I was the only one who knew the big empty space that was in me and I tried to fill it up with things of the world but it didn't seem to work! Aparantely I was what everyone else wanted me to be. I was the friend that was always there the girl who didn't say anything and always stayed quiet! But oh boy only if they knew everything I wanted to say only if they knew how much I wanted to scream out for help as well!! Because to them I was perfect just the way I was but they didnt know how much hate and emptiness was in me because to them I was perfect but personally me I hated the way I was living I wanted to end with my life! But because I wanted to please everything and everyone around me I stayed quiet and that's the biggest mistake we make!! Until one day I couldn't take it anymore I was done with everything I just wanted a way out of every thing that was suffocating me!!! So I finally spoke! I finally did what I have to do! I didn't let people treat me the way they wanted anymore! I didn't let them make the decisions for me! I said it was time for a change and that I was going to be who I wanted to be! And I made it! but oh no it wAsnt easy at all! It was though and of course I couldn't do it alone. But I did it with the help of God! He is the reason why I write this to you and why I'm still here!! It's not too late to be who you want to be!!!:)

My Life Changed.

Late at night I stay up thinking how my life would've been if I've never met the one who saved me from this world my God. All these questions come up to my mind: would I still be alive or how would my life be probably misserable. Would I've have killed myself like I use to plan it or would I've had died slowly of the pain and sadness that I had inside me? filled of hatred towards this world and I didn't know why? Blaming others for my mistakes! Stuck in my own little world where there was no light but just darkness finding a way to end with my life cause I hated myself. Tried to be someone who wasn't me wanted to be out in the world wanted to be known, tried to be good but it didn't seem to work. So I gave a chance to the bad and started being someone who wasn't me and when I least expected it wasn't me who had control of my life anymore but everything else that I pretended to be. So I gave up and went back to my own little world. And as time passed nothing changed except the emptiness inside me kept growing. I wanted to atleast fake a smile but who was I fooling no one else but just me! About to commit suicide I tried to think about my family and everyone else that was close to me. How would they feel if I was gone forever. But the thought of suicide kept growing and just when I was about to kill myself. I remembered that someone once told me that there is a God who can help me and fill this emptiness inside me?! But then I thought to myself wait if there is a God like they say there is then why is my life miserable? It wasn't until I opened my heart to God and decided to give him a chance and that's were I found that happiness and love that no one could give me! And now I live to serve him! Now I can say there really is a God who can change your life around! If he did it for me why not for you!! All you have to do is open your heart to him let him in and you will see the difference!

ENJOY! LOVE, MARLENE:)